I'm surprised I even slept! I went to bed late, and woke up at 2. I couldn't figure out for the life of me for the longest time, with my sleep fogged brain, why I was waking up. Then I realized it was because I was super hot! After resolving that, I collapsed into sleep again.
I dreamed.
It was snowing. We were all out shoveling our driveway. The next door neighbor and elderly couple, was out there shoveling too. My mom stated that she wished she had a snow blower like the couple next door. I looked over and they were shoveling I commented on that. Finally, when we were nearly done, the couple got out their snow blower to blow off what little snow was left on their driveway. I thought it was funny they were doing it like that. It was warm, and the snow was melting everywhere. I took a big pile of snow, and threw it off into the middle of the street. My little brother picked up another pile, and was about to throw it onto our grass when I said 'No! Throw it out into the street! It will melt faster that way'. So he did. We finished throwing all the piles of snow into the street.
My little brother and his wife and I were all going to some kind of play/choir event. My little brother told me that he had set me up with a girl, and that she was pretty aggressive. I went and sat down next to her. I remember she had long, straight brown hair and was wearing jeans. As soon as I sat down, she said 'I wish I was having a back massage.' I looked at her and said 'No thanks'. I was feeling a little ticked off because she was being so forward. Then she just turned in her seat and placed her legs into my lap. I was quite shocked and angry at that. Again I said 'No thanks'. She then sat up. She looked pretty angry too. She leaned in close to me and said 'Wouldn't it hurt to let someone in close? Are you afraid of being hurt again?' At that point, I felt my anger dissolve into sadness and hurt. I told myself that she couldn't understand, and I tried to think of how I would explain why I felt so hurt and cared about close relationships. Eventually, I just got up and left.
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