I've been off the grid for a bit. I don't have very much more new information to share. I can say that I've discovered (or rediscovered) that a lot of my frustration toward life is the fact that many of my beliefs are in conflict with my feelings of attraction toward men. I do think that many of these 'beliefs' I have are lies masquerading as religious teachings.
In a conversation with my therapist, I told him "I don't ever remember learning that having feelings of attraction toward men was bad." That's when he responded with "Well, that's because it's church doctrine." It was at that point that I realized that the adversary had probably whispered that lie to me and I had believed it, and taken it for truth. I'm very excited to see what could happen when I start to uproot that lie.
That aside, I would like to pass along an official announcement made by Northstar. Northstar is a community dedicated to helping members of the LDS church to work through or managed feelings of same gender attraction without sacrificing gospel values. It's been a very valuable community for me to be a part of.
They've started a 'Voices of Hope' project to encourage those who are trying to live their faith and who also experience feelings of same gender attraction. I think that it is a wonderful idea. There are many other voices out there that call for people to leave their beliefs and their religion in order to 'embrace' their feelings and become 'happy'. I hope that the Voices of Hope will help encourage people to find peace inside of the teachings of the gospel.
Here is the link. Enjoy! http://northstarlds.org/community/voicesofhope/